Sunday, April 29, 2007

By now, most if not all of my jc male friends are in the army.. And I'd like say a big THANK YOU for your sacrifice and for keeping Singapore safe and sound... that we can go to bed every night peacefully.. =) Remember, don't lose passion in whatever you loved doing before entering army..
Yang, continue to do what you are good in - playing beautiful piano pieces. I shall find you to accompany my cello in future.. =)

I think I should stop using Yiruma's song for my blog... Feel a little illegal.. Hahaha... Does anyone has a recorder to lend me?

*Ain't no mountains high enough...*

Friday, April 27, 2007

Getting real nonchalent recently... Perhaps it's the music that I play? or..... hmm..
It's a wonder how music can still u... hopefully not to the extent that I become boring though hahaha... Ytd's cello lesson was the most fruitful... Glad that I've improved slightly... But there's still a looonngg way to go.. In fact, there is no end to learning music.. and in fact, it's a universal language we ought to know! Ok I'm biased here... Haha.. =P

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Today seemed long...
Sigh..
My colleague likes to vent her frustration on me recently...
Got scolded for helping her today...
I kept my cool...
My nonchalence has once again saved me...
Then I was reminded..
God uses the weak to shame the wise.
There's no need to prove anything...
Just gotta keep doing the best I know how.....
Though it may not be good enough for them...

Ok off to practise cello...

*A solitary melody admist the bustle*

Monday, April 23, 2007

Great it's monday...
Work was challenging... But I like... Felt like a zombie in the morning though..
Anyway I was amazed by my colleague.. She was so spot-on

Colleague: You don't have a boyfriend now right?
Me: Ya, how you know?
Colleague: Cos you look like someone who wants to be free..
Me: Ya!!!

I think that's amazing and surprising cos no one has ever given me that answer.. =)

Steph didn't work today, if yes she will be very much bored by my nonchalence I guess...
Went alone to Esplanade library to read my current book "The Pianist" (Ya I'm a bit behind time...) The gist of the book is about how a Jewish pianist went through the war when Germany took over Warsaw... Great captivating story yet to complete reading though..

One incident at the library..
A friend called on my mobile and I answered.. (Ok I broke the rule..)
While whispering halfway, a librarian signalled me to disconnect.. and so I did..
Right after that, I heard 2 girls talking (3x as loud) near me.. But the librarian didn't give a...... look.
That was a stark irony wasn't it?

This is like being able to eat your chicken rice and char kuey tiao and everything else in public transport except burger, fries and a drink. =)
Librarians... The more I stare at this word.. The weirder it gets... Library.. Librarian... They look nerdy by itself.. LOL...

Dad came and fetch me for dinner with him.. On the way, he mentioned about ytd's Miss Singapore pageant and how 'nonsensical' their answers were..

Dad: If I was them I'd say "I don't care about a damn what my mother thinks as long as I truly love that guy ah, anyway it's me who is marrying him not her!" (Blablabla...)
Me: Wah like that more original..
Dad: (yada yada..)

Err, he has strong opinions.. haha. And he also said that we should "reason with our mother and judge for ourselves.. anyway parents can only advice..." When I heard the safe and morally correct answers by the girls.. I went.. "yaa..... ok........right." and I walked away to play com.. Lol.. Ok I have no right to comment.. Haha.. Glad that Jessica Tan won!!! She looks totally spot-on.. like almost 10/10. Nice~~

Everyone is beautiful in their own ways ya. =)

*Back to life... Back to reality...*

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Oh great.. Got a tuition assignment by MengChing.. Teaching her nephew. Haha Cool.
I NEED MONEY..................
Left 3 free night slots for tuition.. Ok maybe I shouldn't be that choosy already........
Sigh....
SCRIMPPPP.................

Still I confess, God is my Provider.

Friday, April 20, 2007

IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!! The whole office was so alive today! =)
Met Vick after work for an impromptu movie "Wild Hogs"... Haha.. I'd probably rate it 3.5/5 Haha funny show. But I dosed off a little halfway.. Just tired ba.. =)

While in the toilet ytd, some lyrics flashed through my mind..

In Your presence I stand in awe
Stilled by Your holiness
Oh that precious moment
When I could barely hear the world

I like the last line a lot.. Esp now that I'm part of the infamous 'office crowd' and engaged in the bustle of the marketplace, I really appreciate quiet moments alone at home playing my instruments.. And quiet time with God at night in my room where He nv fails to renew my strength for tmr's challenges.

Hmmmm, however after mingling with the working adults, I'm rather confused... Ya, asian culture taught that we must respect our seniors and I'm totally agreeable to that... However, I questioned myself.. "What about them? What kind of attitude should they have towards the younger ones?" Uh, that's less enforced isn't it. Do we just swallow all down when being pushed around? Or can we voice out? If we are only reasoning, is it us who are disrepectful? Or are they too prideful to hear and see from our point of view? Or too afraid to 'lose face' if we are actually reasonable?

Someone enlighten me please..

Take for example...
Me: *pointing on a piece of paper* Is this the address?
Colleague: *jokingly* you are old enough to see yourself
Me: *in my mind* Er...... ok...........
After a while,
colleague: *point to a name on a paper* Is this 'U' or what ah?
Me: *jokingly* you are old enough to see yourself
colleague: wah you mei da mei xiao leh..

Ok alright.. see? We said the same thing.. But I'm the rude one now.
"....???"

Haha but don't get the wrong idea.. I enjoy working with my colleagues, I feel blessed. They are nice and fun people to be around with.. Just a lil' confused about the above...


*Patience is the companion of wisdom.
Saint Augustine (354 AD - 430 AD)*

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Ah, I've rejected 2 offers from the agency... Yaya I'm choosy.. Waha. I gotta be. 1 is kinda far and the other wants FIVE days a week of tuition.. "Poor kid" I told the agent.. I nv like tuition.... But I like teaching actually.. Waha..

I'm glad in my life I have many inspiring teachers who are passionate about teaching.. Who stayed the extra hour, walk the extra mile, used up their extra strength.. Just to see us through our major exams.. For this, I was actually only referring to JJ teachers.. YEA THEY'RE THE BEST EVER....... I'm so touched now that I think back...

Alright man.. I'm off jogging with diana again and this time with Schumann too! LOL.. One day should organise 'night run' with the fellow west people.. Waha..

*When you tried your best and you don't succeed....*

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Oh yessssssssssssss yessssssssssss yesssssssssssssssss
I'm in philharmonic orchestra now!!!!!!!
Great great..
Today's prac was merely sight-reading for me cos I haven't played before.. So I didn't play some chim-er parts.. But overall was a great experience.. =) It meant more intense practices from today onwards.. Which I totally don't mind hehe.. It's great to hang ard with musicians too and talk about music.. We sure do talk with much enthusiasm. Wahaha..

So this is my first baby step...
A lot of things yet to buy... Music stand.. Rubber tip for cello.. Tuner.. And not forgetting I haven't paid for my cello..
*Deep breath*....
Ok.. relax..
Today I called the tuition agency, Thinking of earning a hundred or 2 more.. or 3.. or 4.....
please give me smart kids who don't actually need tuition... =P

*Passion = Sacrifice*
Goodness.. I can't get enough of a lot of things.. Ya I'm greedy!!!!!

Still can't get enough of God's presence ever since last weekend with Benny Hinn.. It was 3 most awesome nights ever... We saw the power of God working so mightily in the midst of us... Lots of miraculous healings... Felt the presence of God so strongly that we couldn't hold back our tears every now and then... The entire indoor stadium was filled with an aura of reverence and holiness.. It was just amazing.... Like everyone was humbled by God's majesty.. and the CHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I loved every part of it!! Awesome experience that will be remembered fondly even in years to come... =)


The band


Taken by Lili~ Nice! =)


Me and Lili! The one who stood next to me during carol n benny hinn.. Awesome and cute person =)

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One more thing I can't get enough... MUSIC!!!!!!!
Everytime I'm out I can't get to get home and practise my stuff.. And recently esplanade has become my most favourite place to be in.. Great to be alone there..
So happy I had cello lesson just now.. But I made my teacher wait again.. Sigh.. I already tried my best to rush but still late.. Anyway it was good that I've improved slightly.. He's still teaching me the basics though but it's good that way.. (but boring la deh..) Joining Leon for philharmonic rehearsal tmr.. It was comforting to know that I can go into hiding at a corner and practise by myself if I can't catch up tmr.. LOL.. Great.. Walls make an awesome audience.. I love playing to the walls.. LOl.. Yea humble beginnings... =)

*Do it*

Thursday, April 12, 2007



Mood of the day: Nonchalant.

Meeting diana for a jog at 11pm... YES! I miss late night jogs with her... We would lie down at the sit up bench and stare into the star-lit sky.. lol.. It kinda reminds me of a special night I spent in medan.. When a group of us laid in the courtyard counting the number of shooting stars we saw.. Those are precious moments I treasure =) Thank God for making a beautiful world.. =)

A beautiful song I first heard when I was 10..

And with our hands lifted high
We will rejoice and sing
And with our hands lifted high to the sky
When the world wonders why
We'll just tell them we're loving our God

Gotta run!

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Sigh, ended up not gg today... I thought I have nothing much to show Tat Haur anyway......... So me and Leon decided that I should practise more first.. Alright... Sigh.. My cello teacher actually waited for me outside NAFA ytd... But I didnt' turn up cos I couldn't get him... feel so bad to make him wait in vain...... =( and you know the feeling of being so eager to learn sth yet can't...? Sigh experiencing cold turkey now.. I love music lessons.. That's why I sometimes I tend to be stingy in entertainment n material things but willingly splurge invest in music... =P So I can live without movies, nice food, unnecessary shopping, camera hp, whatever gadgets or maybe even a computer..... My piano n cello will be the last thing I will sell if ever a need to... And I hate it when people leave things on my piano.. (For eg: fingerprints and cups and just about everything and anything) Goodness, it really gets on my nerve.... =( Can I laminate my piano? lol..

Ok that aside, today I had a fun day at work, managed to finish most of my things.. And getting a hang of work permit issues already... Went esplanade library after work to chill, it's such a lovely place! Watched an informal gig at the cafe there with a choir friend whom I bumped into.. The lead singer had such beautiful voice and I wished I could sing like the way i did before..... After that I found myself smiling all the way to marina sq to meet steph.. lol.. People were looking at me like I was some kind of freak but who cares.. The gig was real nice and unpretenious, like music coming from ordinary people with a passion for it.. Not like it's for money or fame.. =)

Lol.. gotta write this down before I forgot.. Chang just bought a racer bike which can go up to 280km/h.
Me: Chang careful k...
Chang: YES BOSS! You wun haf chance to come my void deck play mahjong
LOL~~~~~~~~~~ still the same old chang... lol~

*Lovely memorable simple gig =)*



Tuesday, April 10, 2007

The power of acknowledgement is very.. power.. Or what you call, positive reinforcement? Ah..
It's a win-win situation where both parties feel good. But of course must be sincere and genuine la.. Like a simple 'Great job!' from my colleague means much more than just 2 words.. It has more power to make me work harder than a 'Can you please work harder?' =) So tell 1 person something nice everyday! =)

Hehe.. I have made a friend today~ =) She's actually MengChing my cg member =) There's something special about her and that I really gotta know her... So yay I am meeting her up next week. =)

I'm so glad last week and now~~ Both my parents came for the Easter service and minshan came too!! And coming back!! I'm so happy.. It was such awesome services that those who were there couldn't deny that God wasn't there too.. =)

Was supposed to have my very impt cello lesson today... But my teacher's hp was spoilt la........ Oh dear... How am I gonna play tmr.. Still got the cheek to join the orch.. Ah.......... sigh.... Gotta play my best nonetheless.. Leon said maybe they may give me sight reading.. I love sight reading! But I am afraid I can't translate the notes on cello.. =( .. Donno if I should go tmr or next week.. or..when I feel I can play better........... How? Aiya just go see where I stand.. Then work towards improving more.. Just don't go there and expect that I can get in.. okok just go play my best.. however lousy my best is.. Who knows while I am struggling with finding the correct note, he may see some potential in me? LOL! Hope so! lol.. Ok but don't expect that either..

Oops. well, that's how i talk to myself. =) I can even laugh at my own thoughts lor.. lol.. Actually I don't talk much.. Not that I am reserved.. Just that most of the time my mind has nth much to think about.. Therefore nth to say haha.. Unless sth really intrigues me la, which is quite seldom too.. Sometimes I try to make me think of sth but still nth much comes out.. My gp teacher said that I can think but lazy to think.. Er... LOL!!! That kinda cracked me up.. Lazy to even think.. Goodness.. LOL... I dono.. I can't think of anything to think of.. LOL... Chill people..

*Wave to life and say 'Hi!'*

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Oh my.. Tat Haur replied my email!!!!!
My heart skipped a beat when I saw the msg.. He told me to go for rehearsal next wednesday so that he can hear my playing... AHHHHHHHHHHH.... Now he can only hear me play plain notes!!!

Goodness... Now I'm happy and sad.. Happy that I'm one step closer to get into the orch, and sad that I am many many steps behind in playing..
Huu xii..
Having cello lesson on tuesday.. so gonna grill my teacher wahaha.. lol..
Ever since my dad got his Kangeroo he's been driving me around.. I felt like I went back to history when he used to bring us for joyrides and to many obscure places at night.. And he always talks while driving....... And I always try to remain zai and not to laugh LOL...
For example today..

Me: How come got graveyards at the side? (along the highway)
Him: Cos when I was young, those were useless lands.. Nowadays you seldom see graveyards around cos imagine 2-3 million people tak tak tak *use hand to illustrate the laying of coffins* where got space..
Me: Then stack them level by level underground la.. =)
Him: Cannot ah, later the devils fight among themselves.
Me: -_-" (LOL..)

The west people who take a lift from him before should know his pattern la.. wahaha..
Anyway today was greeat...! Our church was so overflowing with people~ And I had a great time singing in the choir~~~~~ =)

Easter is about re-living forgotten dreams.. reviving dying relationships.. and re-lighting dimming hope... about.. starting afresh.. =)
Happy Easter Eggveryone! LOL~

Thursday, April 05, 2007

haha I know it's a tad too late.. but Happy Belated 21st to Henry! Had great fun with the TPians! Friendly and very on.. waha..










Aileen Bird Aileen =)
At hk cafe~ lol.. Our third station..











Bird keeping watch while I stole a bite =)
I look so greedy la..... LOL..

Aileenss' first pic together!! =) !!
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Sigh, having a hard time at work recently..... What happen is, I'm supposed to manage all the work permit matters in my company... it's like '?!?!?!'... I'm totally alien to this la and they expect me to know after explaining only once or twice.. I told Steph that I made a promise to myself to persevere on until end of June.. and that this is like a training ground for us, to expand our capacity and do things that are against what our flesh desire.. (eg: sleep and the temptation to give up)
I was thinking of giving tuition as well.. Still got my cello debt to settle! Ah..! Any lobangs?
Btw, I emailed the philharmonic ic just now regarding my admission.. Waha hopefully can sia..
*Success comes to those who really want it..*